Moving ahead

So as you know I was in Madrid. It was about a month long trip. I mean Spain is awesome and I love the language and the weather and most of the people. It is kinf of magical place, and I sure will come back for another visit.
In 19 days is another adventure coming and I am in love with it already. I move to London. Freaking LONDON! So excited. I have never been there before. This will be my first time. At least I can pretend, I am American since I have American accent. That will be fun.
I just wanted to tell you that nothing is that hard as it seems and you can do anything =) just work for it =) I mean.. I came home from States about a 6 month ago! 6 months! I still miss it dearly. But I made a money to go to Spain for a month and now I move to England to make some more money.
Work for it and you will get there!

I freaking love my life.

Future Plans

So as I am here - in Madrid. I absolutely fell in love with this city, but like.. not a lot of people speaks English and I mean it is alright, I want to learn Spanish anyway, but it is very hard for me to comunicate with people in cafe or whatever... I always care my dictionary with me just in case. It is good for train time to just read ale try to learn at least some work I can use.
So I have been here fooor 20 days now and so far I know only some words and som phrases, but I should start going to spnish classes pretty soon - I hope - so that will be fun =)
Anyway, as I told you before, I am trying to get into a college and I am STILL waiting for the results and it's driving me nuts! So I started thinging..
What on Earth, will I do if they won't accept me?!
And I am that kind of person that I need plan B in case plan A won't work, and plan C, in case B won't work.. etc.
So I was thinking and just looking at some websites and googleing and stuff..

A. COLLEGE obviously
B. CRUISE SHIP - already sent an application
C. EMIRATES CREW - have to work on my tatts removal for a couple of months
then work for a couple of months, make a money and
D. MOVE TO AUSTRALIA to study
E. WORKING HOLIDAY CANADA
F. MOVE TO LONDON and find a normal job!

I mean.. there is a lot of options! I am would love to work in a hotel somewhere here in Spain for food and accommodation.. and I would love to be a volunteer in Africa.

There is seriously a zillion options!
Just pick one.. and go for it =) =D

You always have a choice

So. I quit my job a few days ago. I am sooooo not gonna miss all the work I was doing, but I will miss the people a lot. I mean a LOT! I would say they were my second family. It is the most close group of people I've had for a very long time.

If you are reading this, I saw you today and I already miss you.

Sometimes you just feel that the place you are at, doen't feel right, or good, or both. That is time you have to move on before it will start eating you from inside. There is absolutely nothing wrong with it, but don't forget people who are your friends. Simply keep in touch. I know it is not easy - at all. But it is worth it. And they probably helped you become the person you are today. So be grateful, because they made you the awesome person you are now. And eventually you will inspire them to move on too. For some people it's just harder than for me or you. 

I got use to be alone. I am a loner. I don't hate people - just sometimes. I just like to be alone with myself and do things the way I want. Sometimes I miss someone to talk to. It is just hard, because not a lot people understand and not a lot people get that I am alone. I am alone but I have a lot of great friends aroung the Globe. That feel right for me, but not for them. That is normal too. They are not me, they didn't go thru what I went thru and that is ok. It was my call. I decited to be alone in this. So can you. 

Crazy lady-me

Currently 21, soon 22. Not happy about it.

Short girl. Also not very happy about it. 

Browie. Kinda happy about that!

Young in heart, pretty old in soul. 

Loving books, pictures (mainly taking of them) and chips.

A huge fan of an adventures. Any kind of them, really.

Hating saying goodbye.

Animals lover.

Still writing letters.

Having a big plans for me.

I would say I was always an optimist. Mostly. Trying to live how I want and where I want and do what I love. Already found my calling and I am not giving it up just because it will be hard af.

I lived in US for over a year I loved it. I miss the freedom and just that country everyday. My favorite place in Eurpe so far is Spain - Barcelona. So I decited to move to Madrid to find out if I will like it also. I havenever been there but I doens't mean I never wanted to. 

I am currently moving around and I will probably never stop! Very selfish but I feel alive. It makes me very so much happy and gives me that special feeling, when I just have to smile. Smile because new places are making me feel, making my laugh, making my eyes open and new places are very nicely calming my illnes, which is called wanderlust. 

I have decited

I used to have about zillion blogs and webs etc.. but they were always about anything ane everything except me... I have travels a few countries and I would love to keep track and memories alive for anyone who wants to read them.

This blog will be about my next adventure.. in Spain - Madrid.. and probably the adveture after that and after that and after that. This adventure is the first time in weeks I feel alive and excited for the plan I have!

So if you are looking for a blog about au-pair or anything like that, you probably won't find it here. This will be about me and my travels and feelings, not about what job I have or how I like it or what I have to do for living.
If you are looking for something else and you are not interested in reading this web please please just find another one =) Thanks.

Do you know the feeling that you came home after a long time someplace else and your home doesn't feel like home anymore and you can't tell anybody, because they have never been in the same situation as you are right now, ale also because they will just thinkg that you are selfish and you should be happy to be home. Unfortunately it is not that way and you are just not happy to be home.
That is the price you have to pay if you wat to leave for more than just a couple days somewhere you hve never been before to experience life and to grow.

So please take care of your dreams! It is worth it.